On fire something solid to wrap my mind around...

I was listening to this song "On Fire" today and I could really identify with the words.

But everything inside you knows
Says more than what you’ve heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words


This struck me as a lot how I felt before I got to university. I had a sense that there was something more out there than what I was seeing, everything seemed so empty and I was grasping at a knowledge I could not see but felt that was missing.

And you’re on fire
When he’s near you
You’re on fire
When he speaks
You’re on fire
Burning at these mysteries

This is how I feel today, even though I haven't felt this way for a long time. This morning I woke up with a gnawing in my stomach to learn something. I just felt hollow and like I wanted something solid to wrap my mind around. I felt like my mind was going nuts for lack of being exhausted by hard work, not because the work I have to do isn't challenging enough but because I've been quite discouraged about doing it. Today I realized it really doesn't benefit me to not work hard, it makes me feel bad.